[Writer Warning: the link in this article should not be viewed by those who are offended by the gay lifestyle and nudity. To write this article it is important to include the link for a better understanding as to whether the blog in question is real or a hoax. I have also edited some words.]
While visiting a gay news site, I came across a headline which drew my curiosity. The title of the blog was “A Gay Athlete’s Life” and after reading the blog and many of its entries, I’m not so sure it is for real.
Having been a sports reporter back in the late 70’s, early 80’s, it was unthinkable at the time that any athlete, pro, collegiate, high school or amateur, would let it be known that he or she were gay. As was the case then, sports locker rooms were so homophobic they reeked of the smell of homophobia just as much as the stench of unwashed gear in the lockers. And unfortunately not all that much has changed today in 2009.
To read this blog, which has sporadic postings over a three year time period it goes into shadowy detail of the athlete’s life and career as a professional baseball player. Shadowy is understandable if the blog is real, but even more so if it is not.
There are several postings which bring me to doubt the blog’s authenticity. There are several postings in which the writer goes into personal relationships and “rendezvous” which did not or could have taken place.
In one posting from July he writes about what could have been a rendezvous with an adult film actor during the All-Star Break, but the writer opted out, It would be career suicide for me Who knows if he has a camera set up somewhere in that hotel room.
A few months ago I was contacted by a porn star. He is a reader of this blog. He e-mailed me to tell me how much he loved the blog. It started off as just an e-mail. As we got to chatting I found out that he is an amateur porn star.
That’s right in several postings the writer includes a link to an email address by which readers can communicate and send if they wish “provocative” photos of themselves.
In May of this year he describes his “breakup” with a boyfriend, Later on that night I asked him if he had been messing around with someone else. He said no and immediately got up to go to the bathroom. When he came back he told me that he hated not seeing me. He had been out one night and met a guy. They hit it off and ended up sleeping with each other.
I’m furious at this point because I have been faithful to him. I really wanted the night to just end. I know couples go through this every day but I never thought it would be me.
That night turned into another and into another. He didn’t know how to tell me because he liked me as well but “needed the physical attention”
I tried to take the pain and frustration and anger out on the field but that failed miserably. I went into one of the worst slumps I have ever had.
I’m not exactly over it. It has taken me a while to post this blog post because of how crazy, bat s**t in love I was with this guy. I’m single and for now I am keeping it that way.
Who knows what is next down the road… I am looking forward to a rebound **** in the next week or so. I am on the road so I am sure it will be a good one.
In his most recent posting of September 22 (at the time of this writing) he writes about his possible decision of retiring due to a recurring injury, My life is not over though. I have an opportunity to keep my life on track and still belong in the game. Nothing is set in stone yet. What I do know is that I have some time to think about it.
What I find most interesting about this posting, and leads me to great skepticism whether this blog is for real, while he can discuss the possibility of perhaps retiring, he says nothing about after retiring, if he does so, finally “coming out” as other brave athletes have done either while still in professional sports or after.
In a June posting of this year he refers to an article someone sent him, I had someone leave an article from a sports writer who is trying to get a MLB player to come out of the closet and become a spokesman for gay athletes. He continues in the same posting, There are so many reasons why I won’t come out and say who I am. First, I have a feeling that my team would void my contract and then it’s pretty much over for my career in baseball. I dream of being an everyday player at a Major league club. The fact that I sleep with men instead of women would end my career. In today’s environment I want to make sure I can make the most money for my talent.
And this, perhaps more than anything else I have read on the blog, brings me to the conclusion that “A Gay Athlete’s Life” is nothing more than a hoax, and a cruel one at that.
Either that or it is written by the biggest fool who would risk his career and income by making revealing and “personal” postings, even to include an email address for followers, and as he calls them, his supporters to contact and send their own “revealing photos” to get posted on a blog that anyone can view.
Of course we may never know for sure, but I for one don’t find this a blog of personal courage, rather one of deceit for those who are taken in by it, thinking they have, even if hidden, a professional gay athlete to look up to. And that is the saddest part to be sure.